if you point out someone’s insecurity, you will destroy their self confidence and they will never be beautiful in their own eyes.
but if you praise their flaws like, “you look pretty with those freckles on your cheeks” you will cheer them up and they will never forget you because you helped them to feel better about themselves.
the choice is yours, you can destroy or build someone using your words. but you know, life will be better if we know how to help people than hurting them.
What are the positive and negative realities you are facing in life as of these past week?
Negative first, i’m broke, i even walk just to get home, i can’t buy new notebook, i don’t have a money for fixing the laptop, i don’t have internet, i can’t search what i need, it is just really painful for me, because everytime i work out my plans, my dreams and it’s like, all i plan tear down.
It’s like I’m working out of nothing, it makes me woeful, i feel rejected even thou no one rejected me, it’s like the world rejecting my lay-out.
Positive. I will not give up on my dreams, specially writing, I’m writing a story/book/novel, i just wanted to be a writer/author, so i start it up with writing it down on a notebook, even thou my hand aches or my hands get tired, or sometimes when i’m writing it just giving up and my hand-writing goes like a scratch, i just take rest then write again.
One thing i learn, even thou it doesn’t come on my way, the things i wanted to, I’ll just try again, again and again..
As i do my work on becoming a writer i learn this things:
1. You don’t need someone/thing to pursue your dreams, its just you need to love what you are doing, it makes you comfortable at many times and not easily giving up whether we face conflicts along the way.
2. I have a choice. To stop or to go on. But i just choose to go on.
3. It’s not how you good you are, it’s how good you want to be.
4. I always pray that: “Lord, if it’s not your will then slip through my grasp and give me the peace not to worry about it.” But God always tickling me every single day, my mentor said, “it is really hard to get on our dreams, but don’t forget to notice little tiny blessings.
5. Finally, i gather some information that will help me on my book, sometimes it doesn’t go very much well, i always chase on what is lost, i always look on what i don’t have and not on the capacity that i can do, in my skills, sometimes God use it, because he will replace everything we lost, if He ask you to put something down, it’s because He wants you to pick something greater.
It is really important to seek God first.
Pagod lang ako kahapon i mean nung Sunday.
Kaya pala feeling ko frustrated ako.
Naglinis kami ng nanay ko ng bahay para sa bagong kwarto ko. Tapos nagbuhat naman ako ng equipments ng church namin, tapos naglakad ako pauwi nung sunday kasi kulang pala yung nahingi ko, kinulang ako ng pamasahe. Pag uwi ko mangiyak ngiyak ako. Kasi parang walang nagyayari sa buhay ko, pero ngayon may nakausap akong babae.
Actually nakakairita siya pero sinubukan ko parin siyang kausapin, tapos nalaman ko kung bakit ganon yung personality niya, masiyadong strong, naalala ko tuloy yung kasabihan na “The Strong person are the weakest people, and the aweak person are the Strongest person”
Naalala ko rin yung sinabi ni Lord sa akin, na kapag nakakakita ako ng mga nakakairitang tao, “Anak wag kang magagalit sa kanila, sila yung mga tao na dapat nating I-win.
Yung purpose of living ko bumalik nanaman, pero kailangan ko munang maabot yung pangarap ko, para mas makatulong ako sa ibang tao. Pipilitin kong abutin ulit, kaya ko to.
Oww… Eto pala yun, u know what i love u, i mean i love ur blog, thoughts, writing, kapag ako nauubusan ng idea for my story natingin ako sa blog mo, kaya mahal n mahal kita e, este ung blog mo. Hayyy life saver siya pramis.
Confession to umaga n kasi, good morning rin kasi kggising ko lng baka mga 4 am n ko makatulog nito.
A letter to the one that got away- Maybe this is how we supposed to be. Strangers again. Indeed, I had the best time of my life with you. You were my star. You keep me wishing. You make me fancy. But you fall out of love. We fall out of love. Like a falling star. I lost you. We lost it. You will always have that special effect on me. Even after all these years. That special connection or attachment or bond. Whenever I hear your name, it will always catch my attention. I guess I will never lose that feeling. That mini heart attack when you are around. And seeing you will always make me feel lonely. Because you were once my world. You were my everything. You were my star. And now you are just one of those people who passed by me. Like we never knew each other. Like there’s no love between us. I guess I will always love you. But so much lesser than I loved you before. You are my one great love. My teacher. When I loved you, it was unconditional. Back when we were in love, it was romantic. The greatest love story ever told. But all good things must come into an end. We ended. And now, out of rage and anger, I can say that you’ll always have that part of my heart which no one can occupy but you. I might fall in love again with someone else. I might love that someone more or less, but not the same as much as I loved you. My love for you was unique. It’s was exquisite. It’s was exceptional. It was beyond comparative. And my love for you will always be different. You are always different.
I can sit here and write about the promises we made. The forever and the happily ever after. I can reminisce how we were back then. That you we’re my Romeo. You are my Batman and Superman combined. I can rant about the moments I cried when you left. But I won’t. You we’re my star. And I was yours. But I guess, a star is not enough. I will find my galaxy. And you should find yours too. Thank you for the moments we shared. It was worth it. All the pain. All the tears. All the laughter. You are worth it. It was a good love. It was a roller coaster ride. But I don’t regret spending it with you. You are wonderful. And anyone could be so lucky to have you. I know it because I’m once lucky. You are always be my one great love. I wish I am yours too. But not my one true love, I guess that’s why you were the one that got away. YOU ARE MY EVERY ALMOST.
Right now I’m in pain, para kasing ang hirap hirap abutin ng pangarap.. Medyo na papagod kasi ako, napapagod ng umasa, napapagod ng tumayo, lumakad, kapag pinipikit ko yung mata ko, nandon lahat yung pain.
Pagod na kasi akong humingi ng humingi. Talaga bang need ko na maghanap ng trabaho, napapagod na ako na umaalis ako laging kulang yung pera ko, pero i check my heart, i see a truth, hindi pala pera ang issue sakin, kundi yung past.
Ayokong sabihin sa iba to, kasi they will just motivate me, wala namang masama don, pero my point is “they are listening to answer, not listen to understand”. Hiyang hiya lang ako sa sarili ko, kasi hindi ako makatayo para sa sarili ko, yung kinatatakutan ko at kinaayawan ko, nangyayari na.
Pinangako ko dati na hindi ako matutulad sa magulang ko, pero yung hate na nandon, parang nasakin na, na sasaktan ako kapag nakikita ko yung pangarap kong tao, ang lapit lapit na niya sakin pero parang ang layo parin.
Ako ba yung lalaking nababagay sa kanya, i think she deserves more, she is a strong girl, i’m just a weak guy, lagi kong iniiyak to sa tuwing hindi ko kayang harapin siya, yung dating pangarap ko, parang bangungot na sakin ngayun.
Wala akong magawa ngayon kundi ang yakapin yung sakit, natatakot akong mahalin niya kasi natatakot akong mahusgahan niya, baka mamaya sabihin niya sakin na “Leader ka pa naman din, tapos ganyan ka” mas pipiliin ko nalang humawak sa sakit, kaysa sabihin sa kanya yung problema ko.
Kala ko ok ng lahat, hindi papala.